This is my first attempt at writing a blog. It has been a long time coming but I just didn’t know what I would blog about. Recent happenings in my life have given me a reason to have a blog 
I recently fell in love but did not receive as much love as I put out there, but instead of becoming bitter, I decided to calm myself by putting it all out there. I know some of the people who may read this are wondering why I would choose to write about love and relationships yet there are innumerable blogs out there based on the same issue. Don’t worry I also thought about the same thing but there’s a difference with me, I was once a non-believer in love, well rather I denied the existence of love(I know crazy, right?).
Well, I had problems with people around me throwing the words “i love you” to people whom it was very evident they do not love. I still do have a problem with it. But I think I changed my opinions on love after understanding that my views on love and those of others were not the same.
I am a person who believes that there is a difference between being in love and just loving someone. The amount of people I love is immesurable but I am in-love with one person, I will forever be in-love with that person. BEing in-love with someone, to me, means that through the thick and thin, with all the other person’s intricacies and quirks you are still going to be there for them. Being in love comes from the heart, it’s exciting, everyday of being in love brings in new emotions and feeling that one never knew they had. Even though we have to work at making the relationship between those we are in love with and us work, I find being in love very effortless.
I say this because from the moment I realized that had fallen in love with him, everything else felt so worth it. I did not have to rack my brains over certain things I would do or even think! Everything I did that would concern him felt as if it was meant to be. Being in love makes me feel like I SHOULD be the one to take care of my man, I should ensure that he also takes care of me. Being in love gave me a sort of purpose which I readidly accept.
There are the certain negative aspects of being in love that one may experience such as sometimes being that obssessive freak that always has to call, text or check-up on the other one every half minute, but ey, the negative aspects are most certainly overridden by the daintiness, the desires, the energy that being in love gives us. This may be a sissy thought, but right now, I can honestly say that I am hurt that he and I are not togthere anymore but the new perspetives on life, the feelings I discovered and how I am right now I have only him to thank for. I think who I am today as comapared to who I was yesterday is different, and in a good way!
